"...And the thing no one ever realized about me or believed was that I could learn. I could train myself into anything. People always look down their noses at hookers. Never give you a chance cause they think you took the easy way out. When no one could imagine the will power it took to do what we do, walking the streets night after night. Taking the hits and still getting back up. But I did and they'd all miss out. Cause they had no idea what I could discipline myself too and I believed in something..."


Prostitution seems to be a theme with my posts, as of late. Interesting. This one, as you can see, is not the upper class version. and horrifyingly, I cross paths, daily, with some of the ugliest women in Ohio, who know very little, other than poverty, survival, and sexual trauma. "Monster" was a 'good' portrayal of the devastating lifestyle of a prostitute at the bottom of everything. It was, however, almost ruined by the Spielberg like score, at times. Very bad decision with the music. very deceptive, too - because while the emotional scenes were very Disney, the sex and murder scenes and THE rape scene were brutal and very difficult to watch. I also feel that they failed to develop the psychological role of the borderline personality disorder. Even so, it is haunting. especially when you have watched prostitutes be physically beaten right across the street from your own house, in the daylight, with your kids playing in the yard. vomit.

http://thisaintmyrevolution.blogspot.com/2008/04/well-here-goes.html

I watched them get picked up and dropped off, everyday. I often see men driving through the alleys trying to find a prostitute. I always try to make eye contact, with the men - so they might know, that I know what a devastating crime they are committing by participating in prostitution - but so they might also know that I am also susceptible to the same empty, lonely desire to kill whatever pain or meaninglessness that they live in.

Very heavy. Look underneath the floorboards.

Serial killers tend to be our societies most extreme symbols of poverty, trauma, and mental illness. and instead of confronting and exploring the issues - we sentence them to the death penalty, to ensure that anyone else who has been raped and tortured as a child/teen/adult - that we will not stand for any insolence, no matter the circumstance - and we would prefer to kill you, than rehabilitate you. that is the equivalent to caring for a cancerous brain tumor with Tylenol. it resolves nothing.

unlike the record companies (especially before the internet), we need to value vulnerability more than cliche bullshit.



and if you think the Somali pirates are just simply savage people - and that they are not desperate to survive and live - like you would be in the same situation - then you are gravely mistaken.

and circumstance never gives any of us the right to commit a crime of any kind - nor does it make it "OK" or something - but it is the most extreme, desperate way to say, give me love, not abuse, not poverty.