i am a real mess about haiti right now. i am constantly on the verge of sobbing or vomiting. feeling powerless, but also feeling american. "here goddammit, take my money. go away."

i have been on a fast from news media for several years now (since I first saw "Network"). and i just fucking despise it. seething. unreconciled. fight club.

so i only know what my wife tells me.

and i have read just enough that my empathy levels have gone through the roof...

and i don't know.

what the fuck?