i guess i meant to have many reflections on 2008, and some feelings for the way things may be this year in 2009 - but those seem to go, as quickly as they come - because life demands so much of my time and attention right now. it kind of defines everything for me, really. and it has also, for the first time, created a kind of barrier between myself and my family, and the rest of our community - as far reaching as Sweden.

it is almost too much to ask of me, to fully enter in to your pain, suffering, hope, and joy - though at times, it is mandated by the will of God that i do.

so as it was in 2008, it will be in 2009. Maggie and I finding mice, worms, and an assortment of insects in the compost. Canaan and I playing playstation 2 together, as well as an assortment of other games and puzzles. Francis pointing in whatever direction he wants me to take him, while giving me that look he gives, if he is unsure about something. kelsie and i keeping up with life, trying to find time to see one another before crashing into bed at night.

so, this year, if you want to share reflections with me, or hear mine - pick up some gardening tools, and come out to our backyard, or invite us to yours. maybe bring a fine cigar or something. if you are looking for kelsie, she will either be in the kitchen or on the jogging path.